Personal Blogging Struggle

With the exception of weddings and sessions, I've been pretty silent online for the past month. 

If I'm being honest, I don't really have a good reason. We didn't go on vacation, I haven't been sick, and if I'm being completely honest, we haven't even been that busy. So what's the reason? Well, truthfully, I'm not sure.

In college I had a blog. It was a very personal one: almost like a diary. It was pretty private and only 2 girls knew the link for a very long time! It was there on my little, insignificant Internet home that I poured my deepest thoughts and feelings. I could "rant" and "vent" and just type whatever was on my heart. Writing was and still is an incredibly therapeutic emotional outlet for me. And so when I typed out my jumbled thoughts and feelings, I knew that not only would it help me personally process what I was thinking, but I knew that the two ladies who read it would be there to pray for me and offer advice. 

Fast forward 3 years, a marriage, move, and business later and now I have a different Internet home. A place that actually has followers and readers and a specific purpose! It's absolutely wonderful! I love showing off my clients and writing about photography. But every now and then I lose interest. 

I lose interest in making "blog content" and "relevant" posts. I miss the freedom of just writing what's on my mind. Previously when I thought of blogging, I would think "What's on my mind? What is something that I'm struggling with or needing to work through?" But now when I think of blogging, I think "What is significant? What would be encouraging to my readers? What is something that would interest my followers?" The second stream of thought requires much more planning and preparation than the first! I now think of blogging as more of a job than an emotional outlet. So blogging is now seemingly work. 

So for the past month this has been my struggle. I have several documents on my computer with half written posts and blog ideas, so there will be posts coming soon! But this struggle has shown me that I need to make a transition.

What once was a purely emotional outlet for me has now shifted to a professional one. Can I still post personal things? Of course! Just not to the extent or deep emotional level that I had before. 

Maybe I'll start up my personal blog again. Or maybe I'll start keeping a diary. But I think I've reached a point to where I want to blog. I want my little Internet home to be full of not just pretty pictures, but truth, sound advice, and encouragement. This space is more than just a portfolio and I want to reflect that.

[Hopefully] Things won't be quite so silent around here in the upcoming weeks. I've got quite a lot of backlogged weddings and sessions to share! But I also a few new and interesting series ideas for the blog! So yay!

And friends, if you actually made it to the end of this post, thank you! Thank you for reading one of the more personal posts on my blog. I truly, truly appreciate you and your dedication to reading my blog. It's YOU that I'm writing for. :) 

Have a wonderful day!